Exploration of my sexuality

I do love being on the road sometimes because I get to explore my sexuality, but it is probably a good idea to be home for a week.

I do like to work in my sweats, no underwear, Then I get to explore but only with one hand, with my hand down my pants.

Last week was pretty fun.  Went to two gay bars, had a guy pick me up at one.  Even though it didn't work out, it was nice to know it could happen.  Then I of course spent some time at the spa.  I do think it was a great exploration.

With all of this said I still want to stay with my wife, and we enjoy each other.  Thank God she still wants me.  Sometimes I can't believe she does.

I have lots of work to do, and can't believe I'm typing to you instead of finishing a report.

Next week I head of to small town America again,  My guess is that nothing will happen, but I hope I will get a lot of masturbation time in.

Reality hits.

How I feel a couple hours after I have a good time at the naked men's spa is so much different.  First, physically I'm tired.  Getting fucked makes a man tired.  I always am weak in the legs.  And of course you have to be careful about BMs too. I know this is not glamorous, but it is reality.

Then I seem to always eat too much.  Partially because if you are going to be a good bottom, you must starve for several hours and not eat for obvious reasons. But also I'm a stress eater.

Mentally, I go through many emotions. Guilt. Anger, fear, disgust.   You just wonder what the hell makes you continue to be drawn to something that most would think was disgusting. Although many readers think it is the norm.

I will tell you I had time and could have went back for several hours today. I drove right by the place and kepty urges inside.  My heart was beating fast as I drove by.  I didn't know if I would turn around or not.  There were more cars than last night.  I know it would have been a good time.

So.  Discussion point. Why are we drawn to the sexual side of homosexuality?.  I know that is not what it is ALL about.  Many times I think it is because we don't have any other outlets. But then again. I did go to two gay bars this week as well.  One, a guy propositioned me, but he fell Asleep before I told him it was safe to come over.

Why?  Not just because it is fun.  Why do most gay men reach to the sexual aspect so quickly?  Emotion and love are a secondary thing it seems.

Denver...... I need to stop this.... or do I? Hot Sex at Naked Men's Spas

Well I was in Denver again.  I stayed in a different part of town, and close to the second of two Naked Men's Spas in town.  Well I went to the other one.  It was closer and I thought what the hell....

So I went....


It was nicer than the first.  The indoor pool I would have actually went in.   I did get in the hot tub for a while.  The clientele was nicer looking, and in better shape, and actually more open to being approached.  I think that might have been because there were less dark corners to walk around at and more semi private places to play around.   I enjoyed the company of a couple of guys in the open.  Four to be exact.  The first guy was so fucking hot with a beautiful hairy chest.  Then I found several others to play around with.  Then a handsome, thin, 20 something black man crawled up close to me, and started to play with the guy I was messing with.  I thought Hot an orgy. I started sucking him, and he felt my ass, and asked if I wanted to go to a room.  Well of course I said yes.

When we got there, I found that he was very nice.  He said that he didn't like all the guys. His manhood grew.  It was very nice......   I enjoyed him immensely and got to watch it in the mirror of his room.  

so overall a great experience.   I was there about 6:00 to 7:15.... I won't be able to go in November, but will see what is up when the next trip comes along.

Naked Men's Spa

I started to travel to Denver.  Years ago I went to the Midtown Spa.  It was a good time.  Well since I'm starting to cover the state, I thought what the hell.  I will visit again.  It was on a Friday afternoon. It was a good time.

I found some good sex, and loved feeling sexy again....

Hope to go again this week if it works.

Hope everyone has a great fall.

Chat later.

Size does matter!!!!

I was reading some Facebook posts the other day talking about passwords, and how horrible it is that we must change them periodically. And they were talking about how to make them secure.  I posted a post saying "Size does matter."  This is because it does for passwords.  Well for cocks, IT MATTERS.

It has been a long time for me since I hooked up with a top, and enjoyed his manhood inside of me.  I was craving it sooooo much.  Well I was in a college town of about 50,000 the other night, and I had several good offers.  I found a guy who had "by his measurements" 9 inches.  I wanted to make it work with a man of his size, but was afraid that since it has been at least a couple years since that has occurred that this may not.  Well we made arrangements and got together.  I passed on a 6 inch versatile bottom because no matter how much he wanted to, I bet it would have not ended like I had hoped.

Well let me tell you.  It was 9 inches.... I was so happy that I could enjoy his manhood the whole way.  I did REALLY enjoy it too.... WOW.  Size Does Matter.

PS.  After I had came all over his chest, he did one thing that I really don't like.  He continued to rub my slippery wet supper sensitive head.... I asked him to stop, but he didn't want to... I wanted to please him, so I let him. Ohhhh and he didn't kiss either... So there were somethings that were a little annoying, but I was happy he showed up.

PSS. I am trying not to have a hook up all the time, but there are times I just need the touch of a man....

PSSS.  Things around the house are okay.... working our butts off.  I have a lot of work to do, and am going to be on the road for the next 3 to 4 weeks of and on.

Sick with a cold

Hey all.  I was out of town for two weeks.  The first week I was in the small town, where i canceled the encounter with a young man because he knew some of the same people I did.  I didn't even get on adam4adam while I was there I was too worried.

I also got a bad cold, and all I did when I got done working is sleep in the hotel.  Well I did enjoy myself once in a while.

The next week I was off to Nashville.  I had a three night there.  I have a high school friend that lives there, so I spent the nights exploring Nashville with him.  It was fun.  the last night we went and ate with his wife, and then went to the honky tonks.  It was a fun night.

I didn't even hook up or even try.  I was still recovering from my cold too.  I did get on adam4adam just to see who was close by, but no one in the same hotel.  One guy did want to come by, but he had no pictures, and "didn't know how" to upload a picture.  I figured that was a bad sign.

Hope everyone is well.

Talk soon.

Hook-ups "can" be for me.

I just wrote a post that was titled "Are Hook-ups for me?"  Well apparently some of them are.   I was out of town for a night, and of course I can't stay away from Adam4adam.    I found a hot looking guy that was 10 years younger than me and wanted to get together. He contacted me. The time, and location just worked out.  He came over and was good looking, although he was 20 lbs heavier than his picture, but then join the club.

It was a very good time. We cleaned up in the shower, and spent some quality time kissing and touching. He was quality, and I think that is what I need to look at.  Hook ups are for me if the guy is quality, if not, my hand does the job just fine.

There is a lot on my mind right now. Too much.  Hope you are all well.