Masturbation

Can it be an addiction?  I'll tell you throughout my life, I really have been controlled by the pleasure that masturbation brings to me.  I felt it again yesterday.  It was 4:00.  I should go outside, do something, but I really wanted to watch some porn, and talk to a hot guy on a chat line and pump......

I restrained, as I was keeping busy, and I went upstairs to the kitchen.  I continued to restrain, but kinda stood there with a pit in my stomach.  I felt the urge. Am I horny?  That is normally what I call it.  But today I was calling it addicted. I ate something.  Maybe that would help relieve the hankering the pit in my stomach?  It made me forget about it for a minute.  I decided to make a call and then go outside with the family.  They were out working horses. 

Still a pit, I was walking around like a zombie.... That is how I felt, Like a zombie....

I did a honey do.... watch the fam.... went to eat at McDonalds.... came home and watched some TV after finishing some homework.

It kinda went away.

Then there is this morning.  I woke up.... Hard... wanted it... Wife left... Daughter left..... Home alone.... should I?  I did some laundry... Should I?   Wife will be home soon... Should I?   Damn.....  NO...  I want to have some intimacy with my wife.... Should I?   NO.....

I came and wrote this blog post.  But I'm on the computer with the porn, right there... a great blogger probably posted some hot pictures?   Should I?  

NO
NO
NO
NO

Keep the hand away from the Penis (I know I capitalized it automatically?  What?  Is it a personal noun?)

NO
NO

I won for now. (Notice no pictures of masterbation on this post?)  I know not as visually appealing, but that is the point.