My wife and I got intimate the other morning... It was fun, and I enjoyed the intimacy. You see I have not been with anyone for a long time... Say about 8 months or so, and I don't count the weird time I had with some random guys sucking on me in the bookstore last month. I mean some alone time with a human.
It was nice and everything, but I can NOT keep things hard for longer than 1 minute once I start having intercourse. This is mostly why I have become a bottom in my gay life as well. I like to top, but with it covered it goes down quickly, and if I feel comfortable enough, or horny enough to go raw, it still doesn't stay long, although much longer. I just am not getting as needy in the sexual side of things. It is good for getting work done, but not so much for what I think I should want.
Anyway. I have a doctors appointment, physical etc... I am going to get up the nerves to say something to the doctor. I hope he can do something and I don't have to go to an urologist. I know I should say something to my wife, but you know me... I don't want to talk about anything like that, because it may lead to something I don't want to talk about. What could that be? You may ask... come on. You know.
The fact that I'm gay, and all of those feelings could be what causes it. Or that I watch so much porn, and it may cause problems, or the fact that I'm afraid it may be hurting her. (As it might for some women after menopause.)
Okay... so here we go into a new adventure. Looking forward to what it may bring. This picture is what I hope it brings!!!
|Just look at that young man's smile. I think that turns me on more than anything.|
I'll tell you it is hard to find porn that has the young "xxx" fucking the older "xxx" type. I put in two words there, but I really don't like those labels.
Chat later, and PS, let me know if you know any good porn scenes with this scenario.