Monday, January 16, 2017

Home time equals porn time

Hey guys.  As I stated in my last post, I was changing my jobs around, and now I won't be traveling as much.  Well today, I'll be at home, and the wife will be gone, so I see some alone time with me and some good ole porn.

My wife and I got intimate the other morning...  It was fun, and I enjoyed the intimacy.  You see I have not been with anyone for a long time...  Say about 8 months or so, and I don't count the weird time I had with some random guys sucking on me in the bookstore last month.    I mean some alone time with a human.

It was nice and everything, but I can NOT keep things hard for longer than 1 minute once I start having intercourse.  This is mostly why I have become a bottom in my gay life as well.  I like to top, but with it covered it goes down quickly, and if I feel comfortable enough, or horny enough to go raw, it still doesn't stay long, although much longer.  I just am not getting as needy in the sexual side of things.  It is good for getting work done, but not so much for what I think I should want.

Anyway.  I have a doctors appointment, physical etc... I am going to get up the nerves to say something to the doctor.  I hope he can do something and I don't have to go to an urologist.  I know I should say something to my wife, but you know me...  I don't want to talk about anything like that, because it may lead to something I don't want to talk about.  What could that be? You may ask...  come on.  You know.

The fact that I'm gay, and all of those feelings could be what causes it.  Or that I watch so much porn, and it may cause problems, or the fact that I'm afraid it may be hurting her. (As it might for some women after menopause.)

Okay... so here we go into a new adventure.  Looking forward to what it may bring.  This picture is what I hope it brings!!!
Just look at that young man's smile.  I think that turns me on more than anything.

I'll tell you it is hard to find porn that has the young "xxx" fucking the older "xxx" type.  I put in two words there, but I really don't like those labels.  

Chat later, and PS, let me know if you know any good porn scenes with this scenario.  

Tuesday, January 3, 2017

Hey: I thought I would check in

Hey everyone.  How are things going?

I have not given an update for a long time.   I have just been so damn busy.  I'm still real busy, but I quit one of my jobs.  I think the traveling will slow down a little bit.  That is good and bad, First I will not be in a hotel room as much, and also I won't be traveling to towns with bath houses either.

But you know it is funny.  I have not been hooking up for a while now.  Monday for the first time in a long time I stopped at a place with an arcade.  It was pretty lame, but I did get my cock sucked.  Let's say it was really really lame.   The guys were gross, and I even grabbed a guys hernia instead of his balls.  I thought I might throw up...

Image result for male masturbationBut for real.  I have just not really taken any chances lately.  I just haven't found it worth it.  I have gotten really good at masturbation.

Hope life is okay.  Nothing too bad, and nothing great.  Just the normal stuff.

So Hi 2017, I hope things go well.

Monday, June 27, 2016

Hook up blah...

Image result for gay hook up adam4adam
Last Thursday I was on an over night work trip. There were about 7 guys within a 3 mile radius of my location. None were very interesting, so I just jacked off and had phone sex for about 2 hours. It was fun.
I have kind of went to the principle that if it isn’t quality, then don’t push it very hard.

Sunday, June 19, 2016

Happy Father's Day

Well, I just posted how I wasn’t in the mood for much, and then a 25 year old messaged.  Me... He likes older.  2 miles from me. well.....  what do you do.  Go to his place.   He came to the door and he was a cute, slightly chubby guy, but nice beard and had a great smile.  We sat on the futon and we started reaching for each others cocks.   We jacked each other for a while and I could tell he didn't really want to kiss.  He then sucked my cock for a while.  He was pretty good at it.  Then I was jacking him pretty good, and he said, "Slow donw,  I'm close."  He had several drops of precum leaking out, and I tasted it. MMMM.. tasty....
He sucked on me again, and then I got on my knees and sucked and stroked him..   I put my face in his crotch, and loved his smell.  He said he was getting close to cumming, and I just kept sucking.  He asked, "Do you want it?"  I responded by continuing to suck his 5.5 inch cock, ans sucked down his cum.  He smiled, and I sat next to him.... He played with me a little bit, and I said, that he could play with it all he wants, buy I won't come for a while.  He said we need to get together when we have more time.  
I got in the car and went to the grocery store.   I was a little nervous about this one, because He did live in my home town, on a busy highway.  I just went for it, and hope no one I know drove by and will mention that they saw me there....
That was the best gift of the day!!!!!.

What is your Name?

On this Father's Day, I went to church, by myself.  I do this often, and don't mind doing it at all.  The family was out of town.  As you may know, over the last several weeks, I have been more introspective.  Not that it is a bad thing, I'm just not out looking for other company as much.

So here is your warning.  This post is pretty deep.

Today, our preacher (I go to a United Methodist Church.) gave a wonderful sermon and he even inserted part of Lin-Manuel Miranda's Tony speech into the prayer.  The sermon covered the scripture Luke 8: 26-39.  This Chapter is about Jesus going across the Lake to where the Gentiles were.  They were not the chosen people.  They were different, odd, queer.  The Pastor emphasized that Jesus was crossing the "boundaries".  Going places that the Hebrews would think are unclean. Talking to people that were not like Him.  When he stepped on the shore, He was met by a Gentile.  "For a long time this man had not worn clothes or lived in a house, but had lived in the tombs."  He was possessed, or "Occupied".  Stick with me.....

After some time, Jesus asked, "What is your name?"   He is showing that he cares about the person.  Respecting the person.

They (the demons) answered, “Legion,” he replied, because many demons had gone into him.  And they begged Jesus repeatedly not to order them to go into the Abyss.

Then they were forced to go into the pigs, which ran into the water and died.

The man then, clothed, sat at Jesus feet and listened, and learned.

So...............   Here is what I got from this story, and maybe it is what the pastor was trying to get across, but if not, we all hear what we need to sometimes.

First, Jesus was the first "Boundary" breaker.  He was a rule breaker.  He came from his Father (God) and was told to love and believe, and you will be forgiven.  It doesn't matter who you are.  Gay, Straight, Bi, Transgender, or a Gay man married to a woman, and live what to some might be a deplorable life.  Jesus was a lover.  He loved us for who we are.  He Broke those "Boundaries", he broke those rules of the Old Testament.

Second, "What is my Name?"  Who are you? He wants to know you.  Who you are. He cares.

Lastly, for me personal I need to get those demons out.  So what are your demons.  Many may think, they know where I'm headed.  To getting out the gay demons.   But that is not where I'm headed.  Get the demons out that tear me down.  My demons are my thoughts.  The thoughts that I am not adequate, that I can't live this way.

I find that sometimes those are my demons.  And they need to leave me, and get jump into the swine, run to the water and drown.

   Here is what I got from it.   "I will live as a gay man, married to a woman.  I will love my family, my wife, and not let others dictate how to live and what makes me happy."

That includes those have been in similar shoes as I.  Those that have decided that they will "come-out" to the world, and get a divorce.  It includes those who think I should "get over" being gay and make different choices.  It includes those who think I should stay sexually active only in my marriage.

I am breaking the boundaries, just like Jesus.

And so is this man.  Listen to his speech/Prose.

My wife's the reason anything gets done.
She nudges me towards promise by degrees.
She's the perfect symphony of one.
Our son is her most beautiful reprise.
We chase the melodies that seem to find us until they're finish songs and start to play.
When senseless acts of tragedy remind us that nothing here is promised. Not one day.
This show is proof that history remembers
we live through times when hate and fear seem stronger.

We rise and fall and light from dying embers.
Remembrances that hope and love last longer.
And love is love is love is love is love is love cannot be killed or swept aside.
I say that as symphony. Eliza tells her story. Now fill the world with music, love, and pride.
Thank you so much for this.

Monday, June 13, 2016

Gay Bars - Orlando

After hear of the tragedy in Orlando, I remembered that I went to my first Gay Bar ever in Orlando.  It wasn't the Pulse.  I re-read my post from March 9, 2012.  Click on the date and read it... The Bar's name was Barcodes.  It was a good time, and I met one interesting man there.

My heart goes out to all of the victims families, and those who have to relive this tragedy.  I can only imagine.

Wednesday, June 8, 2016

Stopped at a cruisie park

So I was driving back home from some meetings, and I thought I would stop by a park that has always been cruisie.  I have not stopped there for probably 5 years or more.  I checked on, and it seems to still have activity.
This park has a boat ramp, and there is one car parked all the way by the ramp, but the close parking lot is empty.  I pulled in and check my phone just for fun.  Looked at A4A and Squirt.  Continued to read a post on Tumblr and a guy in a cowboy hat pulls up in a white truck. 
He messes around in his car for a long time, and I look over at him and try to see if he will make eye contact.  He looks over several times, but nothing that would seem overly inviting.  He then gets out with a bag of trash and throws it away.  I look at him, and he looks at me. He goes wide, and then goes back in his pickup.  30 seconds later he drives away.  About a minute later, I drive away.  
I really didn’t have a lot of time to do anything, but I thought I would check it out.  it wasn’t too far out of my way, so really nothing lost.  I go back to the same town tomorrow, so maybe I’ll drive back out there.  Probably not, but it will be around noon.  We will see how I feel.
I did rub one out when I got homes.... so there is that.