Who am I?

Hey readers.

I've been reading all these great blogs out there, and have found more and more of the bi/gay bloggers are starting to talk about Christianity.  I too am a Christian, and go to church almost every Sunday with my daughter and sometimes my wife.  I sing in the church choir, and it is one of the best parts of my life.

It is a very accepting church, but still based in the gospel.  I love our pastor and parishioners at the church. They fill me up each week.

I have been thinking more and more about living life as a gay man.  Not like most people would, but as I and others I know do. I'm gay. I live the heterosexual life style. Why can that not work?  Why do I need to come OUT?  I know there are many posting about how I am not happy, but that is when I push myself to be someone I'm not, and go to a place I do not want. I don't want to live out.  It scares the hell out of me, and when I think about everyone in my life knowing, it scares me worse.  I want to be who I am right now.

Who am I. I'm a guy who loves men, sexually and emotionally.  I'm a guy who loves my wife and family. I like to be intimate with her. Why, I ask why, should I give all of this up, because some would say it is not normal.  Especially someone who is gay.

Gay people can be judgmental too.  I'm married to a woman.  Live with it.  I was born this way.