It is a very accepting church, but still based in the gospel. I love our pastor and parishioners at the church. They fill me up each week.
I have been thinking more and more about living life as a gay man. Not like most people would, but as I and others I know do. I'm gay. I live the heterosexual life style. Why can that not work? Why do I need to come OUT? I know there are many posting about how I am not happy, but that is when I push myself to be someone I'm not, and go to a place I do not want. I don't want to live out. It scares the hell out of me, and when I think about everyone in my life knowing, it scares me worse. I want to be who I am right now.
Who am I. I'm a guy who loves men, sexually and emotionally. I'm a guy who loves my wife and family. I like to be intimate with her. Why, I ask why, should I give all of this up, because some would say it is not normal. Especially someone who is gay.
Gay people can be judgmental too. I'm married to a woman. Live with it. I was born this way.