I Love Easter. For me it means a new chance, and a new start. But what does this new start mean when I know that I will not change my ways. I know that I will continue to be with men behind my wife's back. Jesus Died for our sins.
What I struggle with, is "Did he die for our sins so we can continue to sin over and over and over again?" The same thing. Continue to do things that you think and you are taught are not moral.
I struggle with praying in church with images of this man in my head. Literally. I want a clean mind and heart, but I do not have it. So I have to continue to believe that God forgives me.
Here is what I always think about. There are people who continue to gossip, and tell lies, and do not love their neighbors as they do themselves. They will continue to sin, and do these things. Will they make it to heaven? I think I have as much of a shot as they do.
Easter is about forgiveness.