The results are in... The doctor says...

Well... I didn't get the number, but the doctor says by Testosterone is in the normal range.  So he prescribed me some sildenafil citrate 20mg. Interesting that he gave me a generic that is normally prescribed for a lung condition so that I didn't have to buy the actual Viagra, which he said can be very expensive.

He told me I could take 2 to 3 tablets.  I remember when I took the stuff years ago, I think I bought 100mg tablets, and cut them in 1/4 and that was enough.  I will likely take one (1) and see what happens.

I do also remember that it kept things hard for longer for several days...

I also remember that it gave me a headache, stuffy nose and red eyes.

I have not told my wife yet, but I likely will sometime.   But I will make sure I tell her I take three each time, and only take one or two and I can build up a reserve for trips....

Well... wish me luck...

Also, my cholesterol is 160.  No medicine yet, but I should watch my diet.

Doctor checks my prostate

This morning I went to the doctor, mostly for a check-up (Cholesterol, etc...).  My wife was also bugging me to go because I have been having some abdomen pain.  It was infrequent, but she thought I should go.  So I did.

Well I did get my prostate checked, I love when the Doctor explains the best way to take a finger.... I smile and say to myself.  I think I know how to do this better than you....  LOL

I did also tell him I was having problems keeping an erection.  He was going to check my Testosterone levels.  He told me that if it is not the T levels, than he will likely prescribe a low dose generic Viagra.  He said that if you take three of them it will do the job.  The reason he does that, is because the other is about $30 for a single dose.   I wanted to tell him that when I bought some on the internet i was taking 1/4 of a 100 mg and was fine.  He said that the generic Viagra was for a different diagnosis and came in 25 mg doses, and to take about 3 of them.

But first thing first.  We will see if the T is low or not.

Funny thing is I was just stroking, and I kept it hard the whole time.  Maybe it was because I was watching Colby Keller.  He is my dream man.

Well we will see what comes of this. The Job adjustment starts today.  I am still busy, but it feels good.  Only one work master to worry about.

Talk to you all later.  

Home time equals porn time

Hey guys.  As I stated in my last post, I was changing my jobs around, and now I won't be traveling as much.  Well today, I'll be at home, and the wife will be gone, so I see some alone time with me and some good ole porn.

My wife and I got intimate the other morning...  It was fun, and I enjoyed the intimacy.  You see I have not been with anyone for a long time...  Say about 8 months or so, and I don't count the weird time I had with some random guys sucking on me in the bookstore last month.    I mean some alone time with a human.

It was nice and everything, but I can NOT keep things hard for longer than 1 minute once I start having intercourse.  This is mostly why I have become a bottom in my gay life as well.  I like to top, but with it covered it goes down quickly, and if I feel comfortable enough, or horny enough to go raw, it still doesn't stay long, although much longer.  I just am not getting as needy in the sexual side of things.  It is good for getting work done, but not so much for what I think I should want.

Anyway.  I have a doctors appointment, physical etc... I am going to get up the nerves to say something to the doctor.  I hope he can do something and I don't have to go to an urologist.  I know I should say something to my wife, but you know me...  I don't want to talk about anything like that, because it may lead to something I don't want to talk about.  What could that be? You may ask...  come on.  You know.

The fact that I'm gay, and all of those feelings could be what causes it.  Or that I watch so much porn, and it may cause problems, or the fact that I'm afraid it may be hurting her. (As it might for some women after menopause.)

Okay... so here we go into a new adventure.  Looking forward to what it may bring.  This picture is what I hope it brings!!!

Just look at that young man's smile.  I think that turns me on more than anything.

I'll tell you it is hard to find porn that has the young "xxx" fucking the older "xxx" type.  I put in two words there, but I really don't like those labels.  

Chat later, and PS, let me know if you know any good porn scenes with this scenario.  

Hey: I thought I would check in

Hey everyone.  How are things going?

I have not given an update for a long time.   I have just been so damn busy.  I'm still real busy, but I quit one of my jobs.  I think the traveling will slow down a little bit.  That is good and bad, First I will not be in a hotel room as much, and also I won't be traveling to towns with bath houses either.

But you know it is funny.  I have not been hooking up for a while now.  Monday for the first time in a long time I stopped at a place with an arcade.  It was pretty lame, but I did get my cock sucked.  Let's say it was really really lame.   The guys were gross, and I even grabbed a guys hernia instead of his balls.  I thought I might throw up...

But for real.  I have just not really taken any chances lately.  I just haven't found it worth it.  I have gotten really good at masturbation.

Hope life is okay.  Nothing too bad, and nothing great.  Just the normal stuff.

So Hi 2017, I hope things go well.