Busy. My wife has to stay Busy. This was true even before the Secret. But now, it is necessity for her. She has to do it to keep sane. I know if she stops to think or rest, her mind will go to the big secret I have laid at her feet, and has moved up to her heart.
I know how much she loves me, and I sometime wonder if leaving her would be the best thing for her. She could let go of worrying about me. I pray for her every day. I hope she finds peace in us staying together. I want her to know how conflicted I am, but I'm afraid to talk to her about it. How much more honest can I be to her. Should I tell her my daily feelings, thoughts?
I want to talk, but don't want to be put on the spot, and relive being an immoral person. Cheating, not being true to my vows.
Wow is this a gibberish post.
We need some focus in our lives.