Hey all, I may have written about this before, but more and more, I find that I'm stuck. I many times want to ask my wife to do something different, or get mad because of the way she says something. She often will say, "Well that is a stupid question. You should have known that."
Last night was an example. She gave me grief about a task I asked her about, and I got upset at her, for being mean and disrespectful in her reply. I didn't just shut my mouth, as I usually do, but continued to tell her I didn't like it when she made me feel stupid. Her reply is, "I don't like lots of things about you and I have to just live with them. So I don't care."
So now I'm back to this wimpy kid, that is hiding something, and I have to relys on her to keep my secret. I can't express what I feel, because she always has that "One Secret"... the Ace that trumps everything.
I don't want out really. I love where I live, who I live with, everything just the way it is. Ohhh yeah, except that I want to have emotional feelings and a connection with a man.... ohhh yeah, I forgot about that one.... I always think, "I've suppressed it this long, and am able to cure it from time to time with a one night thing. Why can't I just continue?"
I'm Stuck --------