I spent some time with my family recently. I love them dearly, but because they don't know that I'm gay, they sometimes say the dumbest things. It leaves me in a weird position, and a weird mood for a long time. This time we were out and about. The women wanted to go to Michaels. You know the craft store. My dad flicked his wrist and said "Michaels" in a weird kinda higher pitched lispy voice. I kinda just stood there, and my brother did the same thing.
I said to them, "What do you mean?" They said, "Ddoesn't that name just kinda make you think sissy?" Or something similar. Of course I'm not out to them, so I say nothing, and don't try tell them they sounded real hickish. Thank God my wife didn't hear this conversation. Of course I didn't tell her about it either.
I then have to make a decision. I wanted to go to Michaels with my wife and women in the family. Should I go? Will they wonder? Will I hear anything?
Well I went. I like the store, and I don't find it "gay" at all.
I hear these negative things about gay people from them. I don't think they care about where are to whom they say it. Is that what is shaping my thoughts about coming out someday? Does it mean they will not accept me?
Like I said in my previous post. I have so many questions and am thinking about so many things right now. I'm a little scatter brained.