What do you say when someone asks you, "How are you doing?"? I am a, "I'm doing okay." Type of guy. Sometimes I get the response, "Just okay?". I usually tell the person. "Yeah, just okay. Do you want me to lye and tell you I'm doing great, or perfect?"
I don't usually let them know why I'm not doing great, but I do want to ask them why it is so important that I am doing great. Most people don't have it great all the time do they?
Well where is this leading? Well my last post was really depressing, and from the comments (Which i appreciated.) I must of sounded real bad. I guess lets just say I still am "okay". Not "Feeling like I'm about to kill myself." and not "Best ever."
Will I go see a therapist? I probably won't. For two reasons. 1. Money. I know everyone said screw the money go do it. Insurance will pay for some of it. But reason 2. says why spend the money? 2. Wife. I know that she would want to talk about every detail the therapist and I speak. It is not worth the trouble aftwerwards.
If you haven't figured out. I like to put my head in the sand, and let the world twirl around me. That is just me.... that is my whole family... I should get this statue for our home.
Still Gay. Still married. Still doing stupid things that feel right at the moment. Probably just going to go and have sex with a man.... that will fix it all. Well for two hours or so it will...