I have been watching lots of coming out stories lately. I know I am out to my wife, but that is it. I don't think I am ready yet, but I think I am preparing myself. I remember when I was preparing to tell my wife, I would look for apartments, think about how I would make it after the outing, and after I got kicked out. I think this is kind of in preparation in case I am forced out.
I am not really feeling the necessity to come out, I think I am just subconsciously preparing mentally.