Well today, my wife comes into the house. I was working in the kitchen and making some soup. She is hot sweaty and I could tell she was upset. She and her dad had gotten in a fight about things around the "farm." I use the word "farm" because it is a hobby farm. It was about money really... and that he was tired of spending money on her hobby. That is really irrelevant to the point of the whole story, but it put her mood and other words into perspective.
She says that nothing in her life is in order, and that we are a scam. I only said, "I think you are wrong, this is not a scam." I said, "I love you." She says that sometimes she wants to get in the car and drive off and not come back.
I don't know how to help her. I sometimes carry the blame for all that is bad in our family. I caused her to question who we are. I made her not secure in her future. I just wish I knew how or could make it all better. That is what men do. We fix it. I think she was a little better before she left. I will meet her early evening. She will better, hopefully the evening will go better.
As I told you we are going away this weekend, and my daughter is leaving town for a fun church group outing. So it should be fun. We are also going to the PBR bull riding this weekend. Can we say:
On another note, last night my daughter found out that someone is not taking her to prom. She was so upset. I hate to see my family hurting. I hurt for her. She is better today, but I know she is searching for acceptance, and friendship. I want to make her feel better.
I think this all flows to why I'm in the closet. I don't want to hurt anyone, and want everyone to feel good.